Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was over,I headed out to do some personal stuff that I needed to get done.
I delivered a few free newspapers to some of my friends and I also stopped to get something that I needed.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and I also did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to watch a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I had.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Today,upon getting out of bed and sitting down,I again gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,but this time,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.After that,I felt much better and I moved on with the rest of the day.I didn't have much trouble for the rest of the day as I stayed out in the community and did what I had to do.I had no problems with SSA and simply stayed busy.While I did manage to escape the rest of the day,I am still asking all of you fellow blog followers and readers to please keep praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.It is because I don't have much support within my hometown as support groups themed to helping men like me who struggle with SSA.There are none.I feel all alone as a result of that.I know that I have my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,but I need the support of my fellow men as II really want to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I truly and really need both of these things right now.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ