Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much to do.I simply went out to do a few important things and when I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I went and checked my home phone voice-mail and my niece said that it was okay for me to come pick up my laundry.I left to do just that and I also did a few more things that I needed to do.After that,I headed straight home and stayed home for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put my laundry bag in my room and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work and when that was finished,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Though SSA is my most difficult of the two struggles that I have,I actually grabbed the bull by the horns today because I was tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men and to manipulate my genitals to these images of men clouding my mind.When this happened,I threw the temptations on my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations that were clouding my mind.I also asked my Heavenly Father in prayer to help me remove these immoral images from my mind.I also told Satan and his minions to take a hike while in prayer.I prayed real hard and I kept it up until the images of men were gone and the temptation to act out on these was also gone.It wasn't an easy thing to do,but I managed to find the strength to throw everything on my Heavenly Father in prayer and I left nothing out.I get tempted day in and day out to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA struggle.By comparison,it is a lot easier to give into the temptations to act out than it is to go to the sovereign Lord and creator in prayer and ask for strength to fight and resist the terrible temptations.Today,in the mid afternoon,I managed to do that and I felt better after doing so.Though I managed to escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continually keep in mind that the bodies of men were never meant to be used for the selfish purposes that every active "Homosexual/Gay" man uses them for as the bodies of both humans,male and female,are temples for our Heavenly Father's son,the Lord and savior Jesus Christ to dwell in and they are not to be used for selfish,unclean,impure,degrading and immoral sexual activities.Fellow blog followers,please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me some words of positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now and every day.Prayers and positive verbal support both help in many ways and can boost self confidence and self esteem in people such as myself as I do need both self confidence and self esteem boosters each and every day.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a Men's Network meeting in the morning,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ