Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I got dressed real quickly and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed out to a meeting,only to find out when i arrived that the meeting was canceled.After spending a few minutes socializing with the people,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to my sister's house for dinner and when I was finished eating,I headed back home to drop off something and pick up my medication.After that,I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully well as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning while still in bed,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I gave into fantasizing and lusting.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went to far and when I did,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with fantasies and lusting as I went through the day doing what I had to do.I kept busy by being out in the community and just keeping my mind on what I had to do.It was great that I had nothing like that for the day.But,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I am still trying to work on staying on guard and being watchful.Satan and his minions are out there and I need to stay on guard.They can strike at anytime and anywhere without me knowing it.I really need to start getting tough on myself and asking my Heavenly Father for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ when these temptations come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately and daily.Please keep praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please leave some encouraging words and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to an evening Celebrate Recovery group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ