Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving unabated.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I was hoping to get out to turn in another job application that I filled out and maybe hit a thrift store in the area that I was going to drop it off,a huge rain and wind storm kept me close to home.I first stopped at a local gas station to get some gas.after getting gas,I simply went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I did more personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to watch an episode of a classic TV show that I had on DVD and I later did some more personal PC work.I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving unabated,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men that were clouding my mind and yes,there was fantasy and lusting involved and I would also masturbate the rest of the way when I approached orgasm.I really felt miserable and downcast as this happened.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin today while praying to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt better and knew and believed that I was truly forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support from all of you.I have fallen three times too many over the past few days and I have felt miserable and downcast as a result of my falls.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.They also reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need both of these supports because I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans as my area is going to get more windy and rainy weather.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ