Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.I showered after having my coffee and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I when that was done,I headed out to run a small errand.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a small necessity that I needed and after getting some gas,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did some more personal PC work and after having a light dinner,I dressed up in dress clothes and I headed over to church for the Maundy Thursday church service.
The church service was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into my night clothes.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult for me.Today,upon arising,I gave into temptation yet again.This time,it was more for emotional reasons rather than sexual.I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting then near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Though the reasons this time were emotional,it still didn't make it right for me to do.It is still an unclean habit to do and I have to continually keep that in mind because I can't indulge in uncleanness and impurity while being a Christian.Don't get me wrong,I know that I am imperfect and I will fall short from time to time,but I can't let my sexuality own me.I have to work on owning my sexuality rather than let my sexuality own me.When a person lets something own them,that person is a slave to that something that owns them.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin as each and every one of us is responsible for their own actions and must own up to that.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out and when I was finished praying,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I did manage to get through the rest of the day unscathed,but there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave comments of any kind.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need positive verbal support to help keep me going.I also need it to reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle and most importantly,to help keep my motivation and determination strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of the Good Friday evening church service,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ