Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I went into the shower and I cleaned myself up.After I was done,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had lunch and I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.Since today was chilly,windy and a little snowy,I chose to stay home and take it easy.There really wasn't much going on today as a result of the weather,so I felt that it would be best if I stayed home and took it easy.It was great that I got to relax for a while and watch a movie.After the movie was over,I did some more personal PC work.
During much of this,I received a couple of phone calls,one from my new vocational rehabilitation counselor and one from another counselor from the job placement agency.I am hoping to hear from at least one place where I dropped applications off at.I went on with the rest of the rest of the day.
After eating,I decided to do some praying that I had been putting off.I had to talk again with my Heavenly Father and tell him some things.I had a lot to get off of my chest and I needed to do it right then and at that time.I relaxed and did some more personal PC work after that.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I can report that I wasn't tempted to do anything sinful in a sexual sense.I had no problems with sexual images of men clouding my mind nor did I have any temptations to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping to these images.I had no temptations to fantasize and lust after other men.This was great that I had no problems nor temptations to do anything of that sort.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.It is not that I am worried about it or anything,It is just that I had to stand my ground and be ready for when these terrible temptations come around.I had to be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any minute when least expected.I have to remember that Satan and his minions are out there waiting to turn me against the truth of the Holy Bible and my Heavenly Father's original provisions for sexuality.Again,I have to stand up and be watchful of these things.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support to help keep me going.I also need both of these types of supports to keep my determination and motivation strong.They also reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of hoping to place another job application somewhere tomorrow,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ