Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.The main thing was that I went to see a movie at a locally owned movie theater and I really enjoyed it.After the movie was over,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly registered a whole bunch of dollar bills at the Where's George site and when I was finished doing that,I headed for the drug store to pick up two prescriptions and after paying the co-pay on them,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing and after paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I fixed me a light dinner and after eating that,I decided to do some more personal PC work and later on in the evening,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today upon arising,for the second consecutive time,I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images of men clouded my mind and I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitalia to these images,where I wound up ejaculating.This really made me feel terrible.I really felt that I failed my Heavenly Father after this second consecutive fall.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him for forgiveness and to show me mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ because I really felt terrible after this second consecutive fall into sin.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day without problems.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real bad and desperately.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I would really appreciate some positive verbal encouragement to help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and I would also appreciate your continued prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ