Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed for a local Memorial Day cookout and had myself a little lunch.After that,a friend and I went to a local Salvation Army thrift store and we bought some stuff.After that,we headed back to his place for a little socializing and when he said that he wanted to lay down,I left and headed straight home.
When I got home,I went and did most of my personal PC work and took frequent breaks during that time as I had so many e-mails today.One of those breaks was when I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening,while also preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation upon arising out of bed by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which means that I fantasized and lusted after other men.I felt really miserable after falling into sin this morning and after washing my hands,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.After praying,I felt better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I managed to get through the rest of the day without falling into sin again.I still need prayerful and positive verbal support.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers as well.I need both of these types of support really badly and desperately.I am really going through a very difficult emotional time right now and I need both prayers and positive verbal support.They both help in really big ways.They both help keep me going.They also help reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,which it's supposed to rain heavily.I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ