Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast,After breakfast,I got dressed and I proceeded out so I could go and have lunch at a local kitchen again.After lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I would also relax and watch some TV.
A little later on,I headed out to a couple of local stores to pick up some much needed things that I had to get for myself.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed while watching a DVD.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I can share that I wasn't tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting today.No sexual images of men clouded my mind either.Though I was home most of the day,I had no problems with temptations nor did I have any urges to seek out other men for the purpose of acting out with them.For me,that was great.Though I did escape today unscathed,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.No,I am not worried about tomorrow and the days after that.It is that I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any moment.They can try to tempt me to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have.I don't want to sin against my Heavenly Father and disobey his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I have to continually keep in mind that my Heavenly Father never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us is using and abusing it.I also have to work on going to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges when they hit in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I have to ask for that strength the moment that the urges strike at me.I have to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these types of support real badly and desperately.I am going through a very difficult emotional time right now and I need all the support that I can get.Both of these types of support help keep me going.I am always in need of people to believe in me that I can overcome this struggle and heal from the effects that made me struggle with this terrible emotional condition.Your prayers and your positive verbal support do help in a lot of ways.My blog does get many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left by any one who does visit.It makes me feel all alone when nobody leaves me some encouraging words in the comments section.It also makes me feel sad.Both of these types of support also help reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a special church service that I am hoping to attend at another church as members of my church are invited there to join in the worship,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ