Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I had myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to some more personal PC work and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to act out by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind as I was tempted to fantasize and lust after them.This time,I managed to go to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed until the temptations had died down.When I was finished,I felt much stronger and I went through the rest of the day with no temptations,but I still stayed on guard and continued to be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They like to use these unnatural sexual desires that I have to make me disobey my Heavenly Father and his perfect law in regards to sexuality and anything connected with it.I have to show them that I worship the one and only true god and that is the sovereign Lord and creator of all things and that I believe in Jesus Christ as his son and Lord and savior of those who have accepted him as such.I don't want these unnatural sexual desires that I have to own me.I want to show them that I won them and not the other way around.I am still a work in progress.I also have to keep in mind that my Heavenly Father will never give up on me no matter what.I also have to work on avoiding falling into the trap to habitually sin and going to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day and desperately.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section when you visit.Both of these supports help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a Memorial Day outing that I have been invited to,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ