Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for much of the day and listened to some music and I also watched some cartoons and music videos online.
For much of the day,since my car is out of commission,I simply relaxed and took it easy.I didn't watch any TV as there really wasn't anything on for me to watch.I just relaxed,watched some videos online and listened to some music.
Earlier today,I had heard from a friend and schoolmate that they would pick me up for tonight's study group.I told them that I would be available for the time to pick me up.After that,I relaxed a little bit more and just enjoyed the rest of the rest of the afternoon.
Later on in the day,I heard from the friend and schoolmate that the study group tonight was canceled as a result of her mother not feeling well.I told her to wish her mother get well wishes on my behalf and that was it.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon getting out of bed,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.Fortunately for me,I stopped myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished praying,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any minute.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want.I still need to work on being tough with myself.I also still need to work on showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I won then and not the other way around.I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me.I would also appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately and daily.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Prayers do work and yes,even positive verbal support works.The positive verbal support reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Alongside the prayerful support,the positive verbal support help keeps me going and makes me more determined and motivated to continue in this process of healing and change.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ