Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I have a very good day today.
I went to work today and the work day,though hectic,went well.I headed for home after that and relaxed for much of the rest of the afternoon.I had a light evening meal and prepared to retire for the evening.Overall,a very good day.
However,I am still struggling with this terrible SSA.I have been falling short a lot.Today,I fell short again.I gave into temptations to fantasize and lust after other men in the afternoon.I really felt terrible about giving into this terrible temptations.I also felt lousy and was mad at myself as a result of that.
I am still wanting to heal from this terrible SSA struggle that I have.I want to heal.I want to be a whole person.As a result of this terrible SSA struggle and condition,I don't feel like a whole person.I feel less than whole.I don't want to feel this way anymore.I want to feel whole.I want to feel like what I am,which is a man.
This struggle gets worse by the day.It keeps getting worse and worse.I want to pursue healing,but don't know where to turn or go.There aren't many programs or things for people like me in my hometown.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I need prayers.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some spiritual help in the forms of encouragement and positive upbuilding,but nobody wants to say anything.Please support me verbally by posting some encouragement and upbuilding in the comments section.I would really appreciate that.Thanks to all of you and also,Thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ