Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues,but today,I hit a snag.The day,though,was very good.
The work day went well and I had a new tire put on my car.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and had a light evening meal.I then later prepared to retire for the evening.Overall,a very good day.
I am really not feeling well emotionally right now.Earlier today,I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men and yes,I did masturbate to these images.I also imagined myself in sinful sexual activity with them.
I am feeling depressed and regretful.I hated giving into these terrible temptations and I feel terrible about doing so.This is being a very heavy crushing weight on me.I don't want to give into these terrible temptations anymore,but I keep doing so.
I keep asking myself "What's wrong with me?".Why can't I stop fantasizing and lusting after other men.I am fully aware that the sexual activity of Homosexuality,alongside anything connected with it,is condemned by our Heavenly Father in his sacred word,the Holy Bible,but I keep fantasizing and lusting.I always feel lousy afterwards when I give in,which today is no exception.I still don't know whether I'm coming or going.I also feel trapped and stuck in the middle.I don't know what's wrong with me.I really want to stop,but I feel that I don't know how.
If anyone can help,please do so.I need some encouragement.I need some spiritual upbuilding.Please let me know that you're all out there reading.I want to to break free from this terrible trap.Yes,I really do.Please help me.Please.Please leave me some encouragement in the comments section.Please continue praying for me.Thanks to y'all and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day and I hope all goes well.FJ