Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,my work day went well.It wasn't too bad.I had to do two things that were off the schedule today,but I managed to get everything that needed to get done accomplished.I later headed straight home and after that,I went to the post office for a money order.I then went to a local supermarket to get something to drink.I drove a little,but stopped at a local church for a free dinner.I headed straight home and after a little relaxation,showered and did a little bit of cleaning work around the house and did my personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.
Today,while at work,I really had feelings of guilt all over myself.It was for all the the temptations of fantasizing and lust that I gave into over time.I really felt terrible and guilty for what I did.
While I had a few minutes,I went into the men's restroom and prayed.I prayed and tried to be as quiet as possible.I admitted to my Heavenly Father everything I did wrong,from fantasizing and lusting after other men,to manipulating my genitals,to masturbating to these images and asking to be forgiven.I left nothing out.I threw everything on the sovereign Lord and creator of all things.I asked for forgiveness and pleaded for mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was also starting to get teary eyed as I dis this.Afterwards,I felt better,but still felt a little depressed over the whole thing.I get hit with spells of the blues when least expected and I simply go with the flow and simply wait for it to pass.
Still,I need support from all of you.Please continued praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support.Please do so as I would appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow is another work day and after that, the weekend.FJ