Tonight,I am feeling really good.I had a very good day today.
Today,I decided to get started on putting my vinyl album collection in boxes.It was pretty hard work and I sweat quite a bit,but I was glad to get around to doing that and feel great about a job well done.I do have the feeling that I am going to need some more boxes to complete the job.I just didn't realize that I had so many albums.It is going to take some time but the job will get done.I am just getting started because I do want to lighten the load a little for the people that are going to be helping me out.Again,I am going to have to get a few more boxes to get the record albums in there.
Today was also a nice day.It was sunny and mild.The best thing to happen was that my brother in-law came over to fix the toilet mechanism and now,the toilet is working good.
I did have one small errand to run.I had a whole bunch of empty bottles and cans in the back of my 4X4 that I needed to get rid of.I wanted to make some room to make my job a little bit easier.I needed the space.I am glad that they are now turned in and I can rest easily.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.It was a pretty good night.It did start off slow but did get busy later on.I had a pretty good time last night.
On the way to the place last night,I made a really big step that I hope will benefit me later on.I got rid of all the disgusting pornography that I had in my closet.It was a whole bunch of videos,magazines and books that had to go.I have made the point clear that pornography is garbage and that it has no place in my world if I want to overcome SSA.Pornography is also mental poison and I am glad to be finally rid of the porn that I had.It is now in a dumpster somewhere waiting to go to a garbage dump anywhere out of the city.I am also making a resolution not to go to any porn shops and to stay away from any porn sections in stores that have a section such as that.Again,if I want to overcome SSA,I needed to rid myself of pornography and not have it in any part of my life.I am glad to have finally gotten rid of that garbage and again,I don't want any part of it in my life.
I am feeling pretty good.I am not feeling any depression right now.It seems that only a few days ago,I was feeling really down and sad by a sudden case of the blues that had dropped on me when least expected.But tonight,I am feeling better about myself than I have been feeling in a long time and I am hoping that this feeling really lasts.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no issues with images or cravings and this is contributing to my good feelings.This has been a pretty good week and I am hoping that the new week goes as well as this one.I had only one brief episode this week and I guess that I may be doing something right.I am hoping that I can get through this week without having any problems.
I am thinking of going out to have a drink with the guys over at the place where I entertain and I am hoping for some good conversations with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have an appointment with the local hospital practitioner tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the session goes well.I am also hoping that the rest of the day also goes good.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
2 comments:
Great on ya' for getting rid of the porn. Any time (which really was seldom but the thrill soon changed to regret) I bought something I couldn't wait to destroy it. One time I remember a guy who I had seen a couple times gave me a whole bag of magazines because he said he had to get rid of them. He recounted to me that he had a straight friend who was his best friend and that guy kept urging him to discard the porn. I still remember the day I too threw it in the dumpster outside where I lived. I hope he was able to get away from SSA with the help of his friend. I never seen him again and pray that it happened. You have done a good thing my friend. Praying you have a good week. Take good care.
Stan
Yes, I knew that I had to get rid of it because I knew that keeping it here where I live was just plain wrong. Plus, pornography contributes to why someone struggles with SSA anyway. I also had to try to put an end to the temptation of watching it. Just being strong is not enough. I learned the hard way that temptation can be stronger than anything. So I felt that "the" best thing to do was to get rid of it. Since porn is garbage in itself, I felt that was where it belonged.
Thanks again for your kind words of encouragement. They are always truly appreciated. Thanks also for the prayers. You also take good care
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