Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a much better day than yesterday.After eating a quick breakfast and doing my personal PC work,I was still feeling a little drowsy and I laid down for the rest of the morning.The medication that I am currently taking is making me feel this way and all I want to do is lay down and go to sleep.I am hoping that this side effect passes and I will be back to my old self again.
Lately,I have not been feeling like myself.I have been feeling really and mightily depressed for the past several weeks.I have been calling this place called the Drop In Center to talk and they talks have been really great.I enjoy talking with the people there and it is always a pleasure to find someone who will listen to you and talk to you like normal human beings without being judgemental.After hanging up with them,I decided to go on here and post my day on here.
I also had another talk with my father this afternoon.As usual,the conversation was only a few minutes but still,it was great to talk with him.I am still hoping that he comes up for a visit soon.Right now,he has to get some personal stuff out of the way before he can even come up for a visit.Again,I am still holding onto the hope that he will come up and we will talk and spend as much time as possible together.
I had only small errand to run.I went to a local drug store to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed from there and after that,I chose to stay home as there was really no place to go.The weather might have been better but still,there was no place to go.
Though I had a pretty good day and though I am saying that I am feeling okay,I am still feeling some depressive feelings and I am still feeling the full effects of the funk.Though it has leveled off some in the evening(which is weird in itself),I am still feeling the feelings of sadness.I will be calling the office tomorrow to see if they can possibly hook me up with a counselor until my regular one is back at the office.I am going to tell the office how I am feeling and again,I hope that they can hook me up with someone to talk to.I really do need someone to talk to on a regular basis and I am hoping to find just that.I hope that they can hook me up with someone.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also watched a little bit of 60 Minutes.There was some pretty interesting stuff that they were talking about and it was great to watch it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,tonight is the first time in a long time that I am not having any temptation to watch any pornography. I am feeling a little bit better as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
Tomorrow is my day off and I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ