Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go well.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I had a lot planned for today.I had to attend 2 groups in the early afternoon and I also had some small stuff that needed to get done.
But before I attended the groups,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I did attend both groups.The first was a recovery group and the next was a work skills group.Both of the groups went as well as expected.I did get a lot out of the groups and I also got a lot out of positive output from them.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some stuff that was needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still having to deal with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my unnatural desires on a day to day basis.Late last night,I actually gave into temptation and I masturbated to images of naked men and them yearning for me to perform a sexual act of my fancy on them.It really made me feel miserable.I felt that there was 20,000 ton weight on me as a result of my giving in and acting out by masturbating to those images.The only thing that I can do is simply pick myself up and start all over again.I just have to be on guard the next time when that temptation rolls around.I am still open to ideas and suggestions on how I can resist the temptation and to completely blot out these images of naked men that keep creeping up in my mentality constantly.Anything is appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ