Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did some or my personal PC work and I got dressed up in a suit to go to this morning's church service.I had a lot of anticipation this morning as I was looking forward to this morning's service with a lot of enthusiasm.
The service was wonderful.This service marked the beginning of advent,in which we celebrate the first coming of Jesus Christ,God's own son,and looking forward to his second coming.It was a really wonderful service and I really got quite a bit out of that.After having some wonderful fellowship with some of the people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my usual casual clothes.Before I ate lunch,I had a couple of things that needed to get done.I first went to a local Dollar General store to pick up a bottle of dish detergent and after paying for that,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things for myself.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I ate lunch and when my mom laid down,I watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am still hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.Earlier this morning,I was in the midst of manipulating my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But fortunately,I stopped myself before it could really develop.I took my bath and that was it.Still,I am once again being tempted to act out in other ways other than finding a male partner to act out with.I just have to keep strong and keep seeking the strength that I desperately need to resist all this temptation and hopefully,come out winning over this demon called SSA.It isn't an easy fight,but I know that I can win it if I continue trying hard enough.I am determined to be victorious over this demon and gain control of not only my emotions,which motivate me to continue masturbating,alongside the images of naked men that keep clouding my mind and to nip it in the bud.I can still use some advice.If anyone can share what worked for them,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have 2 group meetings that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ