Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After bathing,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I only had a couple of things on my agenda today and I wanted to get them accomplished.
I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things at that store.After paying for the items,I headed straight home.I also stayed there as it was raining for much of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will start improving in my recovery soon.It has been a rocky road and a very rocky roller coaster ride,but I am still feeling hopeful and optimistic that my recovery will start improving again very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out twice in the wee early morning hours.I was tempted to masturbate when I was awakened by morning erections at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours.The first happened at around 4 am and I simply tossed and turned repeatedly until the erection died down.The second happened at around 8:20 am this morning and this time,it was another throbbing erection.My only way of relieving this was to simply get up and head for the bathroom as I had to go there and afterwards,I bathed.Though I escaped both of these,I know that the temptation to act out in any other way other than seeking a male partner to act out with,including masturbation,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,though I escaped these two instances,I know that I will be tempted again.Not that I am waiting for it to happen,I am simply saying that it can happen again when it is least expected to happen.I am still open to any suggestions as to how I can keep myself strong to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating or by any other means.Anything is welcomed.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I am planning to attend the morning's church service and also,the Holy Bible study class before the service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ