Tonight,my road to recovery continues,but still a little rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and now,I have changed my routine to having three cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I only had a small thing planned today and I wanted to get it done.
I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery still moves on,but it is still a rocky road indeed.I have bipolar depression and you can never tell when you are going to feel up and good or when you are going to feel down and bad.It is a continuous emotional roller coaster ride where nobody can predict how they are going to feel one day or the next.On certain days,I feel good and on other days,no so good.I just have to hold on and just do what I can to endure this stuff and stay living.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the bipolar depression.I have to contend with hearing things like voices,sounds and other things that nobody else can hear or try to comprehend.It isn't easy dealing with this double whammy of problems,as well as trying to hold onto reality and try to be as realistic as possible.I will continue to attend my therapy sessions.I will also continue to take my medication as directed.I will continue to hold onto the hope that my recovery will start improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate when I was awakened again by another erection.It was also another throbbing one.I had to really and aggressively toss and turn until the erection died down.This erection was really a hard one and resistance was really difficult.But I managed to resist and I didn't give in.Though I escaped this one,I know that I will be tempted again as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to stay strong and continue to use all the strength that I can muster to resist the temptation to masturbate or to act out in other ways other than seeking a male partner to have sexual activity with.I did receive one suggestion from one of my blog followers and I have been using this suggestion.I am still open to any more and if anyone out there can help,I would appreciate that.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ