Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though it is still a rocky road.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them accomplished.
I first had a spirituality group that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed over there and arrived there half an hour ahead of time.
The group was wonderful as I got a lot out of it.After the group,I headed over to a local community kitchen to have lunch.After lunch,I headed for a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues onward despite the road being rocky.I am still having to deal with the symptoms and the continuous emotional roller coaster ride of bipolar depression(BPD).It is always a rough road.I have to put up with all of this on a one day at a time basis.I don't know what my mood will be day after day.Aside from the BPD,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have,which makes it even rougher.Plus,it also doesn't make my struggle with SSA any easier.The only things that I can continue doing is to continue my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am still holding onto the hope that my recovery will start to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.It was also another throbbing one.I had to really fight this one.I aggressively tossed and turned until the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.I never know when the temptation to act out in any way,other than seeking a male partner out to act out with,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to muster all the strength that I have to resist the temptation to masturbate any erection away or to simply do it for the sake of doing it.Though I did get some good advice from a follower and I am using it,I am still open to any suggestions or advice on how I can continue to resist.I would like to know what has worked for any or all of those who have been reading.Thanks in advance for anything shared.
Tomorrow,I have another meeting with the pastor and I am hoping that it goes well.As for the rest and most of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ