Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though it is still a rocky road.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and I had 3 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up really quickly and I headed over to the church for the Holy Bible study class and the morning worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I did get quite a lot out of both of them.After some fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I put on a pair of sweatpants.After hanging mu suit and dress shirt up,I had a quick lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to relax and take it easy for a while.I also popped a DVD in the DVD player while doing so.I had really nothing else to do.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
My road to recovery,though it is still a rocky one,continues without interruption.It is still a very difficult one because I do struggle with bipolar depression.I have to put up with my mood continually going up one day and down the next.I really don't know how my mood will be at times because it is a very unpredictable thing as regards to bipolar depression.I don't know if I will be up and feeling good or down and feeling sad.Not only that,I not only have to deal and struggle with bipolar depression,but I also have to deal with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside it,which makes it even more difficult.The only things that I can continue to do is to continue my therapy sessions and to continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by a morning erection.It was also another throbbing one at that.Usually,tossing and turning works for me,but this time,I tossed and I turned very aggressively.But the erection wouldn't die down.This time,I had to get up and use the bathroom again and while walking there,the erection died down.After that bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I also have to try to continue to stay strong and continue to fight to resist any temptation to act out in other ways aside from seeking a male partner out to act out with.It isn't easy fighting to resist the temptation,but I have to give it all I've got.While I did get a suggestion from a follower and I am using it,I am still open to any other suggestions or advice.Thanks in advance for any of that provided.
Tomorrow,I have a group that I need to attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ