Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good and stressful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I headed over to the local hospital.I had to have blood work done and an x-ray on my lower right hip region.It took most of the rest of the morning to get everything done.But after it was all done,I headed over to a local McDonalds for a couple of sandwiches.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I had to wait a half an hour before I could bathe as a result of food in my system.After I was done with the PC work,which I did within the half an hour,I bathed to clean myself up and after my bath,I had a bowl of cold cereal and the usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed while watching a DVD that I popped in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and stressful day.
My road to recovery continues onward,but it isn't an easy one at that.I am still struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the struggle is never an easy one.I am usually on an up and down roller coaster ride and that really makes it tough.I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes it even more difficult.I will still attend my therapy sessions and I will continue to take my medication as directed.I will also continue to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ when the going and the struggle seems way too difficult to endure.It doesn't make it easier,but it makes it endurable.With God,all things are possible.I am just glad that I can rely on them when the going seems to feel impossible to bear.But again,with God,everything is possible.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was again awakened by yet another erection.The urge to masturbate was really overwhelming.I had to really get up and do something to get the erection to die down.I went to the bathroom and after I was finished,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected and the temptation to do that can be very overwhelming.As stated,when tempted,I can simply throw them on God and his son Jesus Christ and they will get me through the temptation.After telling them about the temptation,I can move on with the rest of the day and I feel better about it.Thanks to God and Jesus Christ for being there when they are needed.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ