Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to a mandatory spirituality group and that was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have some lunch.After lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in the DVD player.I also did some recommended Holy Bible reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues to go onward,but it is still a very difficult road at that.Day after day,I am having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it is never an easy one.I am usually on an emotional roller coaster ride and that can be very frustrating.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am going to continue my therapy sessions and I am also going to continue taking my medication as directed.I will also still continue to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle starts to feel too unbearable.Relying on God and Christ doesn't make the struggle easier,but it does make me feel only a tad better as it shows that I am not alone.With them,my recovery isn't possible.I will have to keep relying on God and Christ whenever the situation seems to be skyrocketing out of control.If I don't,it would be like the blind leading the blind.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate when I was awakened by another throbbing erection.This was another overwhelming urge and I really had to use all my strength to fight and resist this current temptation.I simply got up and headed for the bathroom and after I was finished,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still get tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have when I least expect the temptation to come around.I am always in a fight to resist any of these temptations and it is always a difficult fight indeed.While it is a difficult fight,I am now relying on God and his son Jesus Christ.I have been relying on them for quite a while and while it is still difficult,it shows that I am not alone in my struggles as they are leading the way and as soon as I throw the temptation on them,I feel better and after that,it is forgotten.It is also so when I do give into temptation because I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me when that happens.I am happy that I don't have to suffer alone and with them leading the way,I have nothing to worry about as they are there helping me out.Thanks to both God and Christ for all of that.
Tomorrow,I have my appointment with the pastor of the church.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that the benefits that it gives me are positive.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ