Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up into a suit and headed for the church for the Sunday morning worship service and the Holy Bible study class before the service.
Both the service and the class before it were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with everyone,I headed for home.
On my way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something for lunch.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I did the dishes and relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.
My recovery continues unabated,but I am still struggling with the symptoms of BPD.It is really hard putting up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.If that wasn't bad enough,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am still going to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more each and every day.It isn't easy putting up with what I got,but relying and trusting more on God and his son Jesus Christ makes it a little bit more bearable.I still have to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory and I also still have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,but with God and Jesus Christ taking the lead,it shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes feel reassured.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened at both intervals with erections out of a deep sleep.With the first one,I simply got up to use the bathroom and after I was finished,I went to sleep as a result of the erection dying down.With the second one,I simply attempted to get up by sitting straight and when I was about to get up to walk,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped these two episodes,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it may be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I do get tempted to act out on a daily basis and they can take any form there is.Still,whenever that occurs,I can still rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through the temptation.I simply talk about the temptation to them and after talking with them Tomorrow,I have an improving self esteem group that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ