Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,because I was awakened by mom out of a deep sleep,and I had to help her to the bathroom.After she was done,I led her back to her room and I went back to sleep.I woke back up in the mid morning and after doing a few things for my mom,I bathed,After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed because I had a few errands to run and while my niece stayed to watch mom,I went out to do them.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed and after paying for those,I headed over to a local McDonalds to have a McDouble sandwich.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up a can of soup as I was still hungry and after eating that,I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with that,I relaxed and I took it easy.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with having BPD.I never how my mood will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I simply can't predict how my mood will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.Even when it does seem to be getting too overwhelming for me to deal with,that is when I take it to both God and his son Jesus Christ.I simply talk about this with both God and Christ and after that,I feel a little bit better as it is in their hands.The struggle with any kind of mental illness is never an easy one,but with the help of both God and Christ,I am never alone in this.Thanks to both of them for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I simply started to get up and when I did,the erection started to soften and after sitting up for a few minutes,the erection was now gone and I laid back down to go back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind the the temptation to act out on thee unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in the fight to resist any type of temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.When it does seem to be getting too overwhelming and/or seemingly impossible,I simply throw the temptation on both God and his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me and getting me through any temptations.It is great that I can rely on them for help and that I am not in this struggle alone.I simply throw the temptation on God in the name of his Jesus Christ and I feel better as the temptation is nil.If in the event that I do give into the temptation,I simply ask God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better as the slate is wiped clean and the sin is forgiven and forgotten by God.Thanks to both God and Christ for being there and for helping is sustaining me whenever any temptations seems to get way too overwhelming or unbearable to handle.Thanks again to both God and Christ for everything.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and my usual lunch at the local kitchen.I have no other things,But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ