Tonight,my road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning to help my mom to get to and from the bathroom.After that was done,I went back to sleep.Later on,my niece came over to take my mom to see a doctor about radiation therapy.I woke up some time later on and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to my usual Spirituality group today and I was looking forward to that with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was done eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I still attend my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to get too overwhelming or seemingly too unbearable to deal and endure with.I simply talk about it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel a little bit better.It shows that I am not alone in my struggles and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by throbbing erections at two separate intervals at the time.These temptations to masturbate were really overwhelming.On both of these occasions,I sat up and as I did,the erection softened and I didn't lay back down until the erections were both dead.I went back to sleep after both of these occurrences.Though I escaped these two episodes,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,mo matter what form it might be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in a constant fight to resist the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.If it isn't with morning erections,it is lusting after men,which tempts me to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for masturbatory purposes,which is one temptation that I am having a difficult time with as this is one that I am usually giving in to.I need help in resisting that sort of temptation as well.I am seeking advice and also,requesting that prayers be made so I can beat this particular temptation.I have asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into that particular temptation,but I keep doing it constantly.I want to stop doing that.I will keep praying to God for help,but I also need prayers by others as well,especially by those who keep track of my blog here or from somebody who just happens to run across this blog while surfing the net.Again,I will keep praying to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to resist these temptations,but I also ask for prayers by others as well.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
Tomorrow,I have my meeting with the pastor of the church as our personal studies are now winding down.As for much and the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ