Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up early when the phone rang.It was my mom calling from the hospital and after talking with her for a few minutes,I went back to sleep for another hour.After that,I got up and I bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast,a couple cups of coffee and after that was done,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and relaxed while watching it.
After lunch,I headed over to the hospital to pay my mom a little visit.After spending some time talking with her,I headed out for home,but first went for a drive to find a certain location where a special outdoor worship service is going to be held this coming Sunday and that will include a picnic lunch.After finding where the location was,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.It is a very difficult struggle indeed,but I still continue to hang in there and keep living and going on with life.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more when the struggle seems to feel too unbearable to handle.I simply turn to them in prayer and they help keep me sustained and help me to deal with this struggle one day at a time.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.When this happened,I simply turned to God in prayer to help get me through this temptation as it was a very overwhelming urge to give in.I simply kept talking to God until the erection softened and I went back to sleep thanking him.Later on,I had to stop myself from manipulating my genitals to get them erect for the purpose of masturbation and yes,sexual images of men were again clouding my mind.I stopped myself and I asked God to forgive me for that and after that,I felt netter.I guess that the next time that this particular urge comes,I have to turn to God and his son Jesus Christ for the purpose of being strengthened to resist that unclean practice of touching myself inappropriately and asking God to help me resist that urge.This type of urge gets really overwhelming.I have a difficult time trying to resist this type of urge.I am going to have to continue praying to God whenever this urge comes around.I don't want to have a share in any immoral sexual activity,including the sexual activity between two members of the same gender.I am asking for some prayers by those who continually follow my blog.Please pray for me and also,pray for my mom who is in the hospital recuperating.Please offer prayers as I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance for doing so.Thanks also to God and Christ for all of their help.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ