Tonight,my road to recovery continues to move forward,I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and before getting dressed,I decided to do some more cleaning up around the house to prepare for my mom's coming home.I even got a phone call from my mom this morning as well.
After doing some more cleaning up,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I decided to first pay a visit to my mom in the hospital to see if she has improved any more.She has improved minimally and that is good.After spending some time with her,I left the hospital and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more cleaning up and I relaxed while watching a movie.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.It is never and easy thing to deal with.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am continuing to attend my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more to help keep me sustained.Without them,I would be on the road to nowhere.The medication that I take does help,but the help of God and Christ does more than what medication can do.Whenever the struggle seems to feel out of control or too unbearable,I throw it on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and that helps keep me sustained.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.The urge to masturbate it away was really overwhelming and I tossed and turned,but decided to sit up and as I did that,the erection softened and for a while,I continued sitting up until the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,regardless of what form the temptation might be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always staying on guard and being watchful as these temptations can come whenever I am not expecting them.The temptations can be very overwhelming and the urge to give in can be pretty strong.But as I said before,when that happens,I still rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through.Whenever the temptations get too overwhelming and the urge to give in strong,I throw it on God and his son Jesus Christ and I keep talking about it until the temptation is nil and I can go on with the rest of the day.If the temptations come back,I simply go to God and Christ again and it is also the same as it was earlier when the initial temptation happened.Thanks again to both God and Christ for all their help and also,for setting me free from the trap of Homosexuality/SSA and for opening my eyes to the truth.Thanks to both of them for everything.
Tomorrow morning,there is a special outdoor church service in a park where a picnic is going to be after the service and I am looking forward to that.with the rest of the day,I am just going to do some more cleaning up and relax for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ