Tonight,my road to recovery continues forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had so much planned.
Today,we had a special outdoor church service at a park where there was a picnic after that.The worship service was wonderful and I had a very good time at the picnic afterwards.After spending several hours talking with church members and others,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a spell and after that,joined my family while they were cleaning up the house to prepare for my mom's return home,which is supposed to be sometime this coming week.I am hoping that my mom recovers soon.
After doing some work around the house,I relaxed and did some recommended Holy Bible reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.To me,going to church each and every Sunday makes the day eventful.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still dealing and struggling,on a daily basis,with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I am usually on a constant ride with my emotional make up and at times,it gets pretty difficult.I don't know if I will be up and feeling good or down and feeling not so good.At times,it happens within the same day.I also schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be too unbearable to handle.It is never easy struggling with BPD or schizophrenic tendencies,but with God and Christ's help,it makes it a tad easier.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I do feel a little bit better,though I am still dealing with the issues.Thanks to both God and Christ for all of their help.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I simply sat up and the erection died down while I was sitting up.After a few minutes,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected and I have to stay on guard and be watchful at all times.The temptations to act out can be very overwhelming at times.When that happens,I simply rely on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult to handle.I simply thrown the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after I am finished praying,the temptation is reduced to nil.I always feel better whenever I pray the temptation away.The struggle with SSA is never an easy one,but with the help and leading of both God and his son Jesus Christ,I can escape and be sustained.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help.
Tomorrow,I have a group that I must attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ