Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I helped out my sisters and my niece with the clean-up around the house.
My mom came home yesterday and we are still working on getting the house cleaned up for her.We are halfway there and it is coming along good.We might be finished by the end of the week and I think that it will look good after it is finally finished.
The clean-up took several hours and after they were done for the evening,my sisters and my niece headed for home and my mom went back to bed and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues onward,but it is still a rough and rocky road that I am on.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller ride that goes with having BPD.I really don't know how I will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the rest.I simply don't know how I will be.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.While that is so,I am still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult to handle.I simply talk to them about it and after that,I feel a little bit better.When they take the lead,I have really nothing to fear nor worry about.Thanks to the both of them for all that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my own strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was a really overwhelming temptation.I simply started to sit up and the erection started to soften.I sat up for a while until the erection was gone.After that,I went back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I am still staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out on the unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form they take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I simply don't know when it will strike.Still,whenever it happens,I can simply take it to both God and his son Jesus Christ by simply talking about the temptation.I simply throw it on them and put it in both of their hands.After that,the temptation is nil.I feel better after telling both God and Christ about that and I can then move on with the rest of the day.If it happens that I do give into the temptation,I simply go to God and him in the name of son Jesus Christ to forgive me for my falling and after that,I can move on.Thanks to both God and Christ for being there whenever they are needed.With them leading the way and taking the wheel,I can overcome anything.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ