Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and,after helping my mom out for a few minutes,I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I only had one errand to run.I simply went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that were needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I helped out with the clean-up over at the house.I had only a little bit to do today and when I was done,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD on a daily basis.I am always on a constant emotional roller coaster ride and it can get pretty monotonous at times.I don't know if I will be up and feeling good or down and feeling not so good.At times,it happens all on the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take it to both God and Christ and they help keep me sustained and cool.I have nothing to fear nor worry about with them leading the way and taking control.It doesn't make the struggle any easier,but it does make it only a tad bearable.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for being there and for always taking the lead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by a throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming temptation.I simply sat up and as while I did,the erection slowly died down and after helping my mom to the bathroom and back to bed,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.The temptation can be a very overwhelming one at that.I want to do the right thing,but the unnatural desires that I have want me to do the opposite.Even when it does seem to get too overwhelming,I still rely on God and his son Jesus Christ a lot more whenever the struggle seems to get too overwhelming.I simply take the temptation to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is nil.I can then move on with the rest of the day.If I ever do give into any temptations,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for that and after that,the slate is wiped clean and I feel better after doing that.It is wonderful that I am not alone in my struggles and that is very reassuring.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it is church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class before the worship service.I will also help with the clean-up tomorrow if and when needed.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ