Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move on.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I had to stop at a local aid office to drop off an aid application in hopes of getting additional aid that I really need and also to discuss other things that I had to talk about.After meeting with them,I headed straight home as I had nothing else to do.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and listened to some music and watch a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery moves on,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my emotions or my mood will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies,which makes my struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God and Christ and after that,they help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of sharing how I feel or anything else with God and Christ and their help in making me feel more stable and sustained.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation early this morning when I masturbated.It was terrible.I really felt down for a while and also ashamed of myself as a result of this fall.This was the second fall for me in the last few days.I don't know what could be wrong with me as I am falling left and right.I asked God to forgive me for my sins in the name of Jesus Christ and I did feel better afterwards.I am just going to have to try and work harder at going to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ for even more help.I am also asking for prayers by those who continue to follow my blog and read the posts that I write here.Please pray for me everyone who follows this blog of mine as I really need then right now.I would really appreciate them.Thanks to all of you in advance for them.I will try and do my part as well.Thanks again.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I need to attend and I also plan to stop at a local kitchen for lunch.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ