Tonight,though still a little rocky,my road to recovery soldiers on.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for myself.After that,I headed back home to register the money at the Where's George site and after that was done,I headed out to the post office to have a money order made and sent out and after that was finished,I headed over to the local Sears to make a payment on my credit card.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery soldiers on,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.As I have said before and I will say again,I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.It is always unpredictable as I can never anticipate what or how my mood is going to be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about my BPD struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel a little bit better.It shows me that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge.Since it has been working for me,so far,I sat up for a while and after a few minutes,the erection fully softened and I went to back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,and they are not very easy to escape,I am now always on guard as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might be in,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always fighting these unnatural desires that I have and the fight gets even more difficult with every resistance to the temptations to act out on them.It is never an easy thing to fight these temptations as they getting stronger the more that I resist the temptations to act out on them.Still,I continue to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the temptations seem to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.When that happens and the temptation is really strong,I simply throw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.If I do give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,my sin is forgotten by God as I know that I have been forgiven.It is simply a matter of talking to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,forgiveness is provided and I can move on with the rest of the day.This shows me that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,it's lunch at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ