Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is ongoing.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to see the nurse practitioner over at the local hospital and after the session,which went pretty good,I headed over to a copy store to make a copy of my resume so I can fill out another job application tomorrow after voting.After that was done,I picked up something at a local Dollar General store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my home suit on and I relaxed for a while and I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my road to recovery,though still rocky,is ongoing,I am still struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I have a very complicated emotional make-up where my emotions and moods vary by the day,or at times,by the minute.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.It also makes my struggles with SSA even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggles seemingly gets too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.It also shows that I don't have to suffer alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I really had to use all my strength to fight and resist the temptation to masturbate and I really tossed and turned and also sat up for a while until the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did later give into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to get them erect or near orgasm,but I stopped and asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for that.All through the day,I continued in prayer to God to help keep me strong whenever the temptations kept coming back.I simply threw them on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resit these temptations as they came.I continued to pray continually and I never ceased until the temptations were reduced to nil.While that works for me,I am also still seeking prayers by everyone who follow and read my blog posts and words of encouragement in the comments section as they do help in keeping me going.Again,I ask that all of you please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a complex emotional time as a result of my mother dying over a month ago.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for all your prayers and support.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,my sister and I will be meeting with a lawyer to discuss some legal matters concerning the house and other things.I am also thinking of going out to pay some more bills as well.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ