Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
The first thing on my agenda was having lunch with my niece and my sister over at my niece's house.It was to commemorate my mom's birthday.It she would have lived to this day,she would have been 83 years old.But now that she is no longer with us,we had a lunch in her memory.After hanging out at my niece's house for a spell,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and got ready to go to a charity spaghetti dinner at a church within another area of the county where I live.On the way there,I dropped off some money at a friend's place as I owed it to him.After that,I headed for the dinner.
The dinner was terrific.I had two big heaping platefuls.After finishing my meal,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.It is always a very difficult struggle as I am enduring it day after day,week after week and month after month.It never gets any easier.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.It also doesn't make my SSA struggles any easier,either.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw it on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and it makes me feel a tad better as they help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was really overwhelming.I sat up for a while and since I had to get up and use the bathroom,I went to the bathroom to use it and after finishing,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I continued to face temptation throughout the day and each and every time that I was being tempted,I threw the temptation on God and asked him for the strength to fight and resist the temptation in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I felt better as the temptation was reduced to nil.I still got tempted again as the day went on,but I kept up in prayer to God and continued to pray for strength to fight and resist the temptation that came around.I always feel better once I have prayed for strength to fight and resist the unnatural desires that I have and I always feel better as a result of doing so.Though I am still doing this,I am also asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog and even by those who stop by to check it out.I am asking for any encouraging words in the comments section as they help in keeping me going as well.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me and also,keep up praying for me as well.It is just that I know that people do visit and check my blog out,but they don't leave anything encouraging or supportive.Please do so as your positive words of encouragement do help in keeping me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do as well.
Tomorrow,I have church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ