Tonight,my road to recovery,though still on the rocky side,continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did 3/4 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.I had a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went out to put a new job application in at the place where I went to vote.After that was done,I headed over to the post office to buy a money order and I went to pay the first installment of my car insurance today to get the policy started for this period.After paying the installment,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and I had a light lunch before going out to shop and pick up a few things that I needed for the house.After that,I headed straight home and I stayed home for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and got ready for the coming of the lawyer who I am hoping will represent me in the process of getting the house that I live within in my name.My sister sat in the meeting and also talked with the lawyer and I will know in a few days if he will take the case.After he left,my sister left as well and I decided to get my meal cooking.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well and that was great.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride along with it.I never know how my moods or emotions will be.They can be up and I am feeling good one day or one minute and at times,down and I am feeling not so good the next day or minute.It is a very complicated emotional pattern that I have to go through constantly.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the complicated emotional pattern,I also have to put up with hearing sounds and voices that nobody other than me hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone my struggle and that is great.It is wonderful to know that God and his son Christ Jesus are there to help me along and that I don't have to struggle alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out a deep sleep by another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while until the erection softened and after that,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation after getting out of bed by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping,but I stopped and asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for that.Throughout the day,I was tempted to act out in a lot of ways and I kept throwing the temptations on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ by talking endlessly about them and every time that I did,I felt better.The temptations were reduced to nil each and every time that I talked to God about them.I also felt like a giant weight had been lifted off of my shoulders each and every time I prayed to God and threw the temptations on him.It is great that God and his son Jesus Christ are there whenever I am being tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and that they are there to help me be rid of them.I am also still asking for prayers by those who follow my blog and read the posts.I am also asking for words of encouragement to help keep me going.Thanks in advance for the prayers and encouragement and Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide and for being there to get me through any temptations that come around.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ