Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday Spirituality group meeting and it went as well as expected.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after eating lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a couple more things and after that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple more things.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still on that daily struggle of BPD,it's symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I have a very complicated emotional and mood pattern where I never know how my moods or emotions will be.I never know if they will be up or down.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.Whenever this happens,I simply talk about my BPD struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better.They both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not in this struggle alone and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply tossed and turned repeatedly and then sat up and when I did,the erection softened and I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still being tempted throughout the day as temptations kept coming on strong.I kept going to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus in prayer and every time that I did,the temptations were reduced to nil.I also kept up doing other spiritual things by listening to gospel music and continuing to keep in mind what the Holy Bible says about the unnatural sexual activity between two members of the same gender.I also had to continually ask God in prayer to help me clear my mind of anything impure,unclean and sinful throughout the day as the unnatural desires that I have continued to plague me with repeated temptations throughout the day.The temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can really be difficult for me to resist.I simply keep up praying to God and after that,the temptations are reduced to nil.I am also still asking that everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts that I write continue to pray for me and again,please leave some encouraging words for me.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight to resist all temptations connected to SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ