Tonight,my road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After that,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.At times,this emotional roller coaster ride can be pretty stressful and tiresome.The ups and downs of this ride can be very hard to deal with and at times,I feel rather tired of going through it.One day or minute/moment,I can be up and feeling good,bout the next day or minute/moment,I can be down and feeling not so good.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ when I feel that this struggle is getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is terrific.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,but it didn't last long.I turned the opposite way that I was laying down in bed and the erection softened after a while and I went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out by fantasizing,lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day as these terrible temptations came at me.It is difficult struggling with SSA,but the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA makes the struggle even more difficult.I kept up praying and asking God for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I always felt better after doing so.I always believe and have faith that God is there to help and he will do it in the name of his son Jesus Christ and that he does give strength to those who ask for it.I kept it up all day as I do get tempted to act out throughout the day every day.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follow my blog and reads the posts.I am asking that you all continue in prayer for me.I also ask that you leave a word of encouragement for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue in prayer for me and please don't be shy when visiting,but leave an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,lunch at a local kitchen and I am planning on visiting a friend to see how he is doing.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ