Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PVC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.After doing all of my personal morning stuff at home,I went over to my grand nieces' and grand nephew's school to pick them up and take them home.I also babysat them for a little over an hour and after that,I headed over to the local Sears to make a payment on my credit card bill and after that was done,I headed over to the post office to mail out an important payment and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or by the minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the early morning hours by masturbating,and yes,there was lusting involved with this.I really felt miserable after this and I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into that temptation and I did feel better after that.I was tempted throughout the day to act out by fantasies and lusting and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I was tempted to indulge in genital manipulation alongside being tempted to fantasize and lust and I kept up in prayer to God all day in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that kept coming at me.I kept it up and I always felt batter after praying and asking for strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.I always felt better after that and knew that God and his son Christ Jesus were there helping me.I am also again asking for prayers and for words of encouragement by everyone who follows my blog.Please continue in prayer for me and also,I would really appreciate an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ