Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a really up and down day today.
Today,I woke in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
My day started out very good,but went downhill later on.I first went to my usual spirituality group and that went well.I was hoping to leave and head for a local kitchen to have lunch,but that is when the day went downhill.My tire on the rear passenger side went flat and I had to seek another way home.I called my sister and she advised me to call my eldest nephew,but he wouldn't answer after I tried calling him six times.I tried my brother in-law,who called me back on my cell phone and he said that he had to head for work within an hour of talking with me.My other nephew was already working and my sister was at a local beauty salon and wouldn't be done for a while.I went to a nearby 7-Eleven to buy something to eat for lunch while waiting at the group site for anyone to help me.Fortunately,my niece called me and picked me up to take me home.I was grateful that she did that.
On the way home,I stopped at a friend's place of business to drop off some money that I owed him and I also picked up the turntable that I want to use with my stereo system at the same time.My niece dropped me off at home after that and I awaited a phone call from my niece's boyfriend as he was the only one who could help me.The only thing that I needed was to put the spare wheel on the car and to simply drive it home,which happened and I am glad to have the car home.
As a result of all that happened today,I had to fix a light dinner to eat as I really didn't have enough time to cook anything.I simply heated up a can of soup that I bought on the way home and had that for dinner.Overall,a really up and down day.I still managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.It is a very complicated thing that I am dealing with as far as having a psychiatric disability goes.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult and complicated.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more of God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular struggle,which is really difficult in itself as it is,and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation this morning by masturbating and there was lusting involved in it as well.I really don't know why I have fallen for the second time this week.The only good thing is that the falls weren't consecutive as my last fall was on Tuesday.When this happened,I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and begged him for mercy as I prayed to God and his son Christ Jesus for forgiveness.I did feel better as a result of that as I believed that I am truly forgiven for my sins.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and asked him for strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that were coming at me from all sides.I didn't want to fall short again today and I kept it up all day in prayer.I am still a work in progress as far as trying to stay strong to continue fighting and resisting and asking God for that strength to continue fighting and resisting all of these terrible temptations.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please leave something encouraging in the comments section as both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this struggle against SSA and make me even more determined to continue my journey in overcoming this terrible SSA.I will also keep up in prayers myself and again,I ask that all of you who follow and read my blog to continue in prayer for me and leave something encouraging for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ