Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots for a bottle of windshield washer fluid and after paying for that,I headed over to a local Chinese restaurant for a little take home lunch.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I had my lunch and after I was finished,I did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed for a while and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It is very difficult having this type of thing as my emotions very from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my BPD struggles even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier,either.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this struggle and the power that both God and his son Christ gives goes beyond what any human therapy,including prescribed medication,can give.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I simply chose to sit up and attempt to get out of bed and while I was doing this,the erection softened and when it was fully soft,I simply went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting with men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I prayed to God,and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges and I felt better after praying.I kept it up as the urges kept coming at me from all sides and I felt better after praying.I felt stronger and I also felt God and his son Christ Jesus were both there for me giving me this strength and I simply moved on by doing something else.Though I have been doing that,I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts to continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I ask this because both your prayers and your positive encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight,gives me even more strength and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.My blog also gets plenty of visitors,but the visitors usually don't leave an encouraging word or two for me.Don't be shy.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me.It can be a helpful verse or account from the Holy Bible or simply telling me to continue in my journey to overcome SSA in many ways.I would really love it if anyone who visits would do that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continuous prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they give and provide.
Tomorrow,I will be turning in another job application and I have an appointment to meet with the pastor of my church to discuss some stuff.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ