Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a lot planned for today.
I first went to my spirituality group today and that group meeting went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch and after eating that,I headed over to the local Public Works department to drop off some old and broken down electronics equipment for them to have recycled.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I headed for a gas station to get some gas and after that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a few movies on DVD for the rest of the day and I also had dinner while watching one of them.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I go through this day after day and at times,it can get pretty tiresome and boring.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to engage in the unclean habit of masturbation when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and didn't lay back down until the erection softened.I laid down and went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted a little bit to indulge in fantasies and lusting that are connected with this terrible SSA,but I prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and I did feel better after praying.Since I was busy for much of the day getting some much needed stuff done,I wasn't really preoccupied with anything of that nature,but I must keep in mind that tomorrow is another day and the temptations can at times come back with a vengeance when least expected.I am again asking that all of you who follow and read my blog to keep on praying for me as I am going through all of this.I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section also.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ