Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I really didn't do too much today.I simply went out only once today to pick up a few things at a local Dollar Tree store and after paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be as I go from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.At times,it can get so difficult that it can at times drive me crazy.It having BPD isn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular struggle.I can simply talk to God and his son Christ Jesus about it and they help keep me looking clam and make me feel a tad better in the long run.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and wouldn't lay down to go back to sleep again until the erection had softened and when it did,that is was what I did.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation to fantasize and lust after other men while manipulating my genitals to all of it.I immediately stopped and asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better afterwards.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day as these terrible temptations came around and I kept asking God in the name of his son Christ Jesus to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations.I kept it up and after I prayed each time,I felt better and much stronger.It showed that God and Christ both heard me and that really reassures me each time.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to continue praying for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging comments both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue to pray for me and don't be shy by leaving and encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ