Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans that were in my car's trunk.After doing that,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some work in my vinyl room and after that work was done,I relaxed and took it easy.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It is never easy and it does get difficult day after day or minute/moment as my emotions vary at different times.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I always feel a tad better after talking about this particular struggle with them as it shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by yet another throbbing erection and lustful thoughts were also creeping up into my mind.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this particular temptation.I sat up for a while,but the erection continued to throb.I had to pray to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was a very difficult temptation that I was dealing with.I kept praying until the erection softened and the sexual images of men and their accompanying lustful thoughts.After they did disappear,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting after men and and also,to fantasize with sexual images of other men.I also was tempted to manipulate my genitals at the same time to all of those things.I kept up in prayer to God and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I kept it up every time until the temptation disappeared and the sexual images faded away.I felt better after that and I kept moving on after each prayer.It shows that God and Christ are there leading the way and that makes me feel better that I can talk to them anytime about these things.I am also again asking for prayers by all of you who are following my blog and reading the posts.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.It can be an upbuilding scripture from the Holy Bible to saying something like "You can beat this.Keep up the fight."Of course, you can say something like that in your own way.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have church as usual and I am also planning to go to my sister's house to do my laundry as it is an awful lot that needs to be done.I am just going to take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ