Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went over to a local garage to make an appointment to have an oil change done on my car and after that,I was hoping to head over to a friend's house to see how he was doing as I hadn't heard from him in over a month,but the snowfall and the sleet that we were having forced me to stay close to home and I decided to pay him a visit tomorrow instead.I decided to go to a local Burger King to have lunch and after I was done eating that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something I really needed and after paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I decided to fold up all of my laundry that was done early in the week.After that was done,I put it away in it's proper place and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride and at times,this ride can get pretty tiresome and monotonous.Aside from that struggle,I also struggle with schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and ask them for help in dealing with these things rightly and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone here and that is very good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this particular temptation as it was very overwhelming.I tossed and turned,but the erection wouldn't soften.I sat up for a while and took really deep breaths to try and resist,but that also didn't work as the erection continued to throb even more aggressively.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got up to walk to the bathroom and while on the way there,the erection started to soften and after I was finished,my genitals were fully flaccid and I went back to bed and back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day and as the temptations came at me,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ in prayer to give me the strength to fight and resist all the temptations that were coming at me.I prayed very hard to ask for that strength and I always felt better each time I prayed and I moved on with the rest of the day.Last night,after doing some recommended Holy Bible reading,I prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ regarding the anger issues that I had and I really opened up about them and openly expressed myself about them to God and asked him for strength to help me let go of the anger that I was feeling and also,asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive those who had made me angry in my life and I felt like a one trillion ton weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.I sensed that the anger issues that I was having and the feelings alongside them were why I was falling so much into masturbation and also,by fantasies and lusting alongside the masturbatory falls.Today,I was tempted again and I again prayed to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to continue fighting and resisting all the temptations that came at me and I always felt better when I did so.Though I am continuing to pray daily,I am also again asking for prayers by each and everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts.I am also asking that you don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section when you visit.It is just that my blog gets a lot of visitors,but rarely leave any encouraging comments.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and keep up in prayer for me as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also for being there for me whenever I really need them.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ