Happy Easter or Resurrection Sunday to all of you out there.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After I was done showering,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the Easter/Resurrection Sunday festivities today.The day first started with an Easter breakfast in the church's fellowship hall and after that,the 10:30am Easter/Resurrection Sunday Holy Communion worship service.I was looking forward to today with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The whole morning in church was wonderful.I had some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers during the breakfast and before and after the worship service.After it was all over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I then headed over to my nephew's house for dinner and I was also looking forward to that.
The dinner at my nephew's house was wonderful as well.After hanging out there for a while and talking with all my family that were there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the day.I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched that while relaxing.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful for me.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me a feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up for a while and proceeded to get out of bed to walk and the erection started to soften as I was doing this.After walking for a short time,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men and to also manipulate my genitals with that temptation.I prayed hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges and I felt much better and stronger as a result of doing that.I knew that God and his son Christ Jesus heard me and they were there helping me all of that time.It is great that God and Christ are there to do just that and it is wonderful.I also must share an experience that I have been having when it comes to being free from Homosexuality/SSA and the lack of support in a world that is getting way too sympathetic for those that are living that sinful sexual lifestyle.I have been sharing comments about the healing process and how God in the name of his son Christ Jesus set me free from the Homosexual/SSA trap.I also heard from another who claimed to be Christian,but at the same time,said that they supported the LGBT agenda,which is an agenda that our Heavenly Father doesn't approve of.I tried to show him in my most sincerest and Christian way that this isn't possible.I showed him the scriptures in Matthew 6:24 and also,1st Corinthians 10:21 and also,2nd Corinthians 6:14.While he wasn't offended by what I had shared,another person accused me of not having any humility in what I shared,when in reality,there was more than enough humility in what I shared that what they posted as a response.I am learning that every day,the SSA struggle is never an easy one and there will be repeated persecutions when we share the truth about the healing process from SSA and the truth of God's word,the Holy Bible and what it has to say about this particular thing in it's own words.I was also accused of being a liar by another,but I answered in reply that if anyone were a liar,it wasn't me,but those who continue to believe and spared the lies about Homosexuality and anything else connected with Homosexuality.I even shared the scripture in John 8:44 about Satan,the devil being the first liar and the father of the lies that are being spread by the so called "Gay" community.I am learning this day after day and the persecution can cause the feelings that I have to be hurt tremendously,but I keep soldiering on in this process and seeking God and his kingdom first and his righteousness and not dwelling solely on the future as Jesus Christ said in Matthew 6:33-34.I have to keep reminding myself that I am doing all of this to please God and his son Christ Jesus,who both set me free from the trap of Homosexuality/SSA and everyday,I thank them both for setting me from that terrible trap in my daily and evening prayers.I am grateful that they both set me free and every day,I feel like celebrating that freedom.While I have been praying to God and his son Christ to help me in my fight to resist all temptations that come at me,I am continuing to ask all of you to keep praying for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I only continually ask this because both your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in overcoming SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my general doctor concerning my problem with frequently going to the bathroom.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ