Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good,but busy,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did 4/5 of my personal PC work.I had a a busy day planned and I was hoping to get through it as quick as possible.
I had a doctor's appointment today with my general doctor concerning my problem with my frequent trips to the bathroom during the day.I headed over there and was there on time.
Though being there on time,I was still kept waiting for over three hours.I was really getting antsy as they had me wait for much too long.While waiting,they had me provide a urine sample for them to check out immediately and I continued to wait.The doctor finally got to to me pretty close to closing time and advised me to get a check-up of my prostate gland to see if that's the problem.After it was finally all over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby store to pick up a couple cans of soup.After paying for that,I headed to another nearby store to pick up a small frozen orange juice.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I opened up one of the soup cans and heated it up in the microwave and that was my dinner.After eating,I simply finished my personal PC work and I relaxed and watched a DVD.Overall,a pretty good,but busy,day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with BPD,it's symptoms and the accompanying emotional roller coaster ride that goes with having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Christ Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I don't have to go through this alone and it does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell this morning by manipulating my genitals and yes,I wound up ejaculating and also,there was fantasizing and lusting involved with all of that as well.I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and I as usual,I truly believed that I was forgiven as I felt better after praying.As a result of my day being totally busy,I took my mind off of my struggles and I didn't have any problems with any sexual images throughout the rest of the day as I went on through it all.It was good that this didn't happen and all the rigamarole of the day kept my mind off of everything.Still,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continue to follow my blog and read my posts.I am also again asking for your encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ