Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans that I had in my trunk and after that,I went to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed over to a friend's place to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be as this emotional roller coaster ride is pretty unpredictable.It can also get pretty tiresome and emotionally exhausting.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more of God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation for the second consecutive time when after getting up by manipulating my genitals with lustful and sexual images of men clouding my mind and yes,I did masturbate after I reached the point of orgasm.I really felt miserable as a result of this and I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning and falling short.I felt much better knowing that I was forgiven and that God has forgotten my sins and the slate is now wiped clean.I am also sharing what led up to this fall.It is all the emotional stress that I have been having as of late.The negative disagreements of others in regards to what the truth of God's holy and sacred word,the Holy Bible,says about the sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender and also,disagreements with those who claim to be Christian,but undermine that claim by saying that they support the agenda of the LGBT side,while still continuing to masquerade as Christians.This really gets me angry as well as sad.I mean,How can someone claim to be a Christian and throw their support for a worldly agenda,such as the LGBT agenda?The thing is this;the Holy Bible condemns the sinful practice of two members of the same gender indulging in sinful sexual activity with each other.This also means that since the Holy Bible condemns this practice and that it is God's holy and scared word,God also condemns the agenda of the LGBT as it is an agenda that God doesn't approve of nor condone.I have learned this the hard way since I have been in the healing process and it really saddens me as makes me angry when somebody claims to be a Christian and also at the same times,claims to support the LGBT agenda,which undermines that claim to be a Christian.I already know that you can't be Christian and support the LGBT agenda,but I wish that other so called Christians,or Christian posers as this is what they really are,would also recognize this.It is simply when someone sows a seed along the path and what happens is that Satan,the Devil takes that seed out of the ground before it even has a chance to grow.Aside from that,it is also the stress of the medical problems that I have been facing lately,such as my constantly making frequent trips throughout the day to the bathroom every hour or hour and a half.This has really been getting to me.Tomorrow morning,I have to go to the local hospital to get my groin area x-rayed to see what the problem could be,such as a problem with my prostate or typical overactive bladder.I am hoping that it is the latter and not the former as with the former,it could be rough going ahead as I endure all the stuff that surrounds this particular problem.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts as I could really use them right now.I am also asking for your encouraging words and/or comments in the comments section as I also need them right now as well.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular SSA struggle and also,helps keep me at peace as I am facing the medical problems that are a hard reality to me as this moment.Please keep praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I am planning and hoping to go to the local hospital to get my groin area checked out to see what could be causing my frequent trips to the bathroom during the day and I am hoping that it isn't very serious.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ