Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good,but busy,day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the local hospital for a PSA test.I was really nervous and anxious about this whole thing as I have been having problems with frequent trips to the bathroom during the day.
The whole thing went pretty fast.I thought that they were going to x-ray my groin area to see what was wrong,but they simply took some blood and had me provide a sample of my urine for evaluation.After it was all done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.After that was done,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some groceries and was there for quite a while.After paying for the groceries,I stopped to see a friend of mine to see how he was doing.After a few minutes talking with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and after that was done.I had a quick lunch of a bowl of soup.After lunch,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and took it easy.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,but busy,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.This emotional roller coaster ride is never an easy thing to deal with as it gets tougher and tougher every day and also at times,every minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name if his son Christ Jesus and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation for the third consecutive time when I manipulated my genitals to lustful and fantasy like images of men and I wound up ejaculating as a result.I really felt down and miserable after this particular fall and I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for my sins and after that,I felt better as I truly believed that God forgave me for my sins and that the slate is wiped clean once again.Throughout the day,I was kept preoccupied with everything at the hospital and afterwards when I left.I kept my mind on what I was doing while out in the community and that kept my mind off of everything having to do with my SSA struggles.While that may be so today,there is always tomorrow as it might be different than today.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to continue praying for me.I also ask that you don't be shy and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please say a kind encouraging word or two for me as that woul dhelp me alongside your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ